Be strong, my friend SG!

It was suppose to be a very nice Sat morning. I woke up early to get ready for my tennis lesson till I received a heart-stricken sms, SG's wife passed away in an accident. I could feel a chill right through my whole body & blacked out for few seconds. How did that happened, I screamed out this question in my heart. How can it happened to them when they just got back together I asked again? How can he accept such ending to their renewed relationship?

Life is such, unpredictable & full of mystery. Like Solomon said in his word, "Vanity of vanities, all is vanity.” (Eccl 1:1-2). What we have taken for granted seems to vanish away easily in split seconds, & it always happen without any warning. Seize the day! Seize every opportunity to do good, be good & appreciate life. I've learnt to do that....

Be strong my friend! My heart goes to you, sharing your grief & pain. Be strong & hold tight to the memories for comfort. I am sure she'll wants you to live life to the fullest & to enjoy every moment of your life. I am sure she loves you very much & knowing you well you love her too. She'll bring with her all the wonderful memories with you & keep them well. Just be strong my friend, there's hope.

I long to worship You....

I used to wonder how can one be hurt & been betrayed by their loved ones (& I'm not referring to loosing to death) up to the point that one can no longer able to cry, only feel the deep set crampy feeling at their chest - a pain that brings breathlessness & cause migraine. How can it be possible to have no more tears, not even able to utter a slight groan?

It's been long road, a rough & fruitless journey for the pasts 10 years. Somehow no matter what I do & say, I can't beat down the wall of selfishness, of possessiveness & judgemental spirits. I don't understand how can a person be so blinded from goodness & love revealing to them everyday, wasting away their lives by living in their own world & counting flaws. Sad for these people, who misses the genuine love & care that I bring to them everyday.

I confess my inability to fight on. Tiredness, disappointments & despair has overtaken me. I failed to make these persons see the light. Who can I run to except the One who is closest to my heart; One who will bring healing to my heart.

I long to go Home soon, where my spirit belongs to. Maranatha! I long to worship You, for You are the Only One who knows the secrets of my heart, knowing the pain that these people has brought to me; only You can breath a new breathe to my body. I'm submitting myself to Your Will in obedience, without asking why it has to happen to me. I know You are my Vindicator, You will bring justice to the matter.

O Lord, lighten my load, heal my pain. Help me to forgive as You have forgiven me.

Happy Reunion

Happiness, overjoyed, grateful.....these are some of the words to describe me now. BDC'ers, the best reward! He has been good to me, yes indeed! I didn't know how much I had missed till I meet them again. It was a wonderful reunion when we spent a great time sharing all over again. This can't be real I told myself at the table but yet I know deep down, this is His Grace showned to me.

His grace is sufficient for me. All the unhappiness just vanished away. His grace & love for me speaks loud & clear during our fellowship. In the midst of the many laughter & talks, I can hear a gentle whisper in my ear, ................I know this is not a coincidence.

Awesome, spectacular, wonderful counsellor....how excellent is your Name!